An open letter to you.. | mteodoraa

Hey you,

How are you?

I know it’s been a long time

And I know that nobody almost asked you that,

But tell me,

How are you?

How it goes, how do you deal with everything

What’s life throwing on you?

Are you happy?

Do you remember when was the last time

When you did something to make you

Forget who you are, where you are going and why

And made you unreally happy?

When you last did something for yourself,

When the last time you spread your wings,

Breathed a fresh air

And flew?

I know that a lot of time has passed,

And you know that it will still go on,

But it’s time, dear.

Perhaps tomorrow never comes,

Today is that day.

Today is the day to get rid of the gaps

All those years that you drag yourself behind,

Today is the day to be who you are,

Young and full of life.

Today, because tomorrow may never come.

Today is the day when you’ll sit alone with yourself,

You’ll drink tea because you don’t like coffee,

You’ll talk and clarify some things for yourself.

Why is it so, what can be different

And what are you gonna do to make yourself happier?

Because of you, dear,

Lives this life for yourself and all the

Things you love.

Because you love,

Isn’t that a sufficient reason for life?

Sit down and take that old black notebook,

Find her in the place where you hid her,

Take a pen and write,

You always did it like a little girl.

Write about your fears,

Hopes,

Dreams,

Your imagination.

Write it, that’s the only way

To let go.

To stop.

Make it easier.

Write, because that’s who you are

And that’s what makes you.

Think about where you were a year ago,

Where are you now

And ask yourself,

What is pulling you forwards

And didn’t let you give up?

My brave little girl,

I’m so proud of you.

I’m proud that you haven’t gone to the wrong way

Although all the winds were sent you there.

I am proud that you have remained what you are,

Innocent and gentle in the world of full of evil people,

Whatever you have remained true to your dreams and yourself

And you got here where you are.

For this, you needed great courage, dear,

And you’ve been very good at that field.

Every morning you got up to fight with all the demons

Which would have tired you the night before

And you stood up every morning, new you,

Smiling and cheerful.

It’s courage,

It is an indescribable will for life,

This is your strength.

And I’m so proud of you.

And the time has passed,

I know you remember,

I remember it too.

Every pain, every tear,

Every twitch of the body,

Every time you bite your mouth with fear,

Every time you wished to go

And every time you stayed.

I remember everything,

And I know this was hellishly difficult

For your gentle heart,

But it’s gone.

You grew up.

You became a beautiful young girl,

Driven by dreams and ambitions,

Powerful.

You’re no longer afraid of a storm,

Because you’ve gone through the same storm many times,

You’re no longer afraid of the darkness,

You learned to enjoy it

And you are not that scared little girl anymore,

Life has also been effective in other ways to scare you.

And you are not afraid of more solitude,

You know you always have yourself.

I know you can.

My brave little girl,

The years have passed,

Now you have some wrinkles from laughter,

Your eyes are full of shine,

And one sun lies in your chest.

When I look at you,

I certainly can’t recognize you.

You changed your favorite jeans,

Found your favorite perfume,

You found your favorite shade of lipstick.

That book you read,

And this song that you keep listening to,

This college you study

And that person you love,

I don’t know.

You have changed.

You grew stronger,

You learned to appreciate yourself,

You magnify your victories

And you learn something from your defeat.

This is the most beautiful change, dear,

This is the best version of you.

Just stay like this,

Cheerful, gentle and sweet,

Life is before you,

So now it’s spreading its wings

And believe.

It’s time to accomplish your promises

That you’ve promised that scared, little girl.

Don’t betray her, she helped you

To become today who you are.

And I’m so proud of everything

What are you now and everything you’ll become.

You deserved to be happy.

So my dear girl,

Fly high

And don’t let it destroy you

What you keep in your chest.

Be brave,

The world loves the brave ones,

And  love,

Love is what will guide you.

Don’t be shy, you exist

And don’t be afraid,

You’ll never be alone.

Now,

Buy yourself a favorite cake,

Call Grandma and tell her how much you’ve been missing her,

Read your favorite fairy tale

And embraced the beloved person.

You live.

Let this be a good enough reason for all.

And be happy.

It’s time. ❣ 

 

 

 

Ej ti,

Kako si?

Znam da je prošlo dosta vremena

I znam da te niko skoro nije to pitao,

Ali reci mi,

Kako si?

Kako ide, kako se nosiš sa svim

Što život baca na tebe ?

Jesi li srećna?

Sećaš li se kada si poslednji put

Uradila nešto što je učinilo

Da zaboraviš ko si, gde ideš i zašto

I učinilo te nestvarno srećnom ?

Kada si poslednji put uradila neku stvar zbog sebe,

Kada si poslednji put raširila svoja krila,

Udahnula dašak vetra

I poletela ?

Znam da je dosta vremena prošlo,

A ti znaš da će još dosta proći,

Ali vreme je, mila.

Možda sutra nikada ne dođe,

Danas je taj dan.

Danas je dan da skineš okove

Svih onih  godina koje vučeš za sobom,

Danas je dan da budeš to što jesi,

Mlada i puna života.

Danas, jer sutra možda nikada ne osvane.

Danas je dan da sedneš sama sa sobom,

Popiješ čaj jer kafu ne voliš,

Popričaš i razjasniš sebi neke stvari.

Zašto je tako kako je, šta može biti drugačije

I šta ćeš ti da uradiš da budeš srećnija.

Zbog sebe, mila,

Živi ovaj život zbog sebe i svega onoga

Što voliš.

Jer, voliš,

Zar to nije dovoljan razlog za život ?

Sedi I uzmi onu staru crnu svesku,

Pronađi je na mestu na kom si je sakrila,

Uzmi hemijsku i zapiši,

To si uvek radila kao mala.

Piši o svojim strahovima,

Nadanjima,

Snovima,

Maštanjima.

Piši, to je jedini način

Da pustiš.

Da prestane.

Da bude lakše.

Piši, jer to je ono ko si ti

I to je ono što čini tebe.

Razmisli gde si bila pre godinu dana,

Gde si sada

I zapitaj se,

Šta je to što te vuče napred

I ne da ti da odustaneš ?

Hrabra moja devojčice,

Tako sam ponosna na tebe.

Ponosna sam što nisi krenula krivim putem

Iako su te svi vetrovi tamo slali.

Ponosna sam što si ostala ono ko si,

Nedužna i nežna u svetu punom zlih ljudi,

Što si ostala verna svojim snovima i sebi

I što si stigla tu gde si.

Za to je trebala velika hrabrost, mila,

A ti si se odlično pokazala na tom polju.

Svako si jutro ustajala da se boriš sa svim demonima

Koji bi te izmorili noć pre

I ustala si svako jutro nova ti,

Nasmejana i vesela.

To je hrabrost,

To je neopisiva volja za životom,

To je tvoja snaga.

I ja sam tako ponosna na tebe.

I vreme je prošlo,

Znam da pamtiš,

Pamtim I ja.

Svaki bol, svaku suzu,

Svaki trzaj tela,

Svaki put kada si ugrizla usnicu od straha,

Svaki put kada si poželela da odeš

I svaki put kada si ostala.

Pamtim ja sve,

I znam da je ovo bilo pakleno teško

Za to tvoje srce nežno,

Ali prošlo je.

Odrasla si.

Postala si predivna mlada devojka,

Satkana od snova i ambicija,

Snažna.

Više se ne bojiš oluje,

Jer si kroz istu mnogo puta prošla,

Više se ne bojiš mraka,

Naučila si da uživaš u njemu

I ne plašiš se kada grmi,

Život je umeo i na druge načine da te uplaši.

I ne bojiš se više samoće,

Znaš da uvek imaš sebe.

Znam da možeš.

Hrabra moja devojčice,

Godine su prošle,

Sada imaš koju boru smejalicu,

Oči su ti pune sjaja,

I jedno sunce leži u tvojim grudima.

Kada te pogledam,

Gotovo da te ne prepoznajem.

Promenila si omiljene farmerke,

Pronašla svoj omiljeni parfem,

Zavolela drugu nijansu karmina.

Tu knjigu koju čitaš,

I tu pesmu što stalno slušaš,

Taj fakultet koji studiraš

I tu osobu koju ljubiš,

Ja ne poznajem.

Promenila si se.

Zavolela si jače,

Naučila da ceniš sebe,

Veličaš svoje pobede

I naučiš nešto iz svojih poraza.

Ovo je najlepša promena, mila,

Ovo je najbolja verzija tebe.

Samo ostani takva,

Razdragana, vesela i mila,

Život je pred tobom,

Pa zato sada raširi svoja krila

I veruj.

Došlo je vreme da ostvariš sve

Što si onoj maloj, uplašenoj devojčici obećala.

Nju nemoj da izdaš, ona ti je pomogla

Da danas budeš to ko jesi.

A ja sam tako ponosna na sve

Što si sada I sve što ćeš postati.

Zaslužila si da budeš srećna.

Zato leti milo moje,

Leti visoko

I ne dozvoli da ti unište

To što čuvaš u grudima.

Budi hrabra,

Svet voli hrabre,

I voli,

Ljubav je ono što će da te vodi.

Ne stidi se, postojiš

I ne boj se,

Nikada nećeš biti sama.

Ispij sada taj čaj,

Kupi sebi omiljeni kolač,

Nazovi baku i kaži joj da ti nedostaje,

Pročitaj omiljenu bajku

I zagrli voljenu osobu.

Živiš.

Neka ti to bude dovoljno dobar razlog za sve.

I budi srećna.

Vreme je. ❣ 

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